I’m in over my head.
You heard me. Writing is a impossible beast, one that I’m afraid I’ll never be able to master. And sometimes, when I’m feeling particularly in over my head, I wonder how in the world I got myself into such a pickle:
I don’t know what I’m doing! Why did I think I had what it takes to write?!?! I’m a passive writing, exclamation point using, comma abusing, cliché collecting, word-count fearing writing misfit. How will I EVER write something that will make it past editing execution?!?!
Yes, I have conversations with myself. All the time. And often they sound similar to the above. I’m incompetent. Even on my good writing days, there is much I don’t yet know or understand, and even more which I haven’t yet mastered.
I have a lot to learn.
And so do you.
Which is precisely why this verse sparked both a giggle and enormous sigh of relief:
“Such confidence as this is ours through Christ before God. Not that we are competent in ourselves to claim anything for ourselves, but our competence comes from God.” ~ 2 Corinthians 3:4-5
I am incompetent in and of myself. As a writer, a speaker, a mother, a wife, a friend. But I hold a pen and live a life that the Master moves, and that makes me competent enough.
- Day 344 (Monday): Romans 11-13
- Day 345: Romans 14-16
- Day 346: Acts 20:4 – 23:35
- Day 347: Acts 24-26
- Day 348: Acts 27-28
- Day 349: Philemon 1, Colossians 1-4
- Day 350: Ephesians 1-6
I too am guilty of the self talk that does not lift up. I use to call my self uncreative, until I realized what I was saying. God is a creative God and since I am made in His image I am also a creative being. When I say I am not creative I am declaring that I am not like my Father God. I may not have fully developed my creativity but I am exploring it and with His help I may someday reach the pinnacle of what He has created me to be.